What a week

I know that I've slacked off this week with my posts and I'm sorry for anyone that has been reading my blog. This has been another crazy week with my trial (that was supposed to start yesterday and now looks like it will start Monday), the boy situation, family stuff- really when the chaos starts it just keeps coming. Besides my one brief slip last week, and another slip on Monday when I pulled one of the wrong way hairs, I'm doing pretty well and my eyelashes and eyebrows are looking really good.

Truthfully I cant think of what to write about today. On Friday, after months of being lied to, I finally found out the now-ex-boyfriend is married. He called and finally fessed up, claiming it was a bad marriage and that they dont even sleep in the same room. While I'm not judging anyone else in a similar situation- to me, this is not acceptable. Either get a therapist or get a divorce but dont drag me into your drama. He called and texted over and over, begging me to meet him on Saturday so he could explain. I dont know what there is to explain. As much as I liked him, and as hurt as I am over this situation, I refused to play his games and never responded after that one phone conversation. That was enough for me.

So it sucks. There is a new rebound guy for now but unfortunately the worst part is the breach of trust. How do you go on trusting people when there are so many liars out there? Sadly part of me hopes that he calls but a bigger part of me knows I wouldnt want anything to do with him if he is the type of person who will cheat on his wife. No thanks.

Anyway, thats been fun drama for the last couple weeks but again, I'm pretty proud of myself for doing as well as I have with pulling in the face of all this stress. On Sunday night I literally had to keep getting up and keeping busy so I wouldnt pull, to the point where I couldnt even go to bed at a normal hour because I kept forcing myself to get out of bed when I had urges. It was a rough night but I made it through.

This weekend, despite the horrible timing, I am going away with girlfriends to Atlantic City to celebrate two of my friends turning 30. Right now its a bit stressful trying to plan it and get everything done but I'm sure it'll be a welcome distraction once we are there. In the meantime, just have to stay positive, know that I can beat this horrible disease and keep taking it one day at a time!

Reason #14- the unnecessary anxiety that is created when I feel a hair that is "out of place" and cant stop obsessing about it. Who needs extra anxiety in their life?