6 of one, 1/2 dozen of the other

This morning I was trying to decide whether it was easier to not pull when the hair was really growing back in or when there was little hair and the ones coming in were stubby/short/dark/alone? Let's be honest, both scenarios suck and I'm sure, like me, you'd rather just not want to pull at all.

Now that my hair is really growing back there are so many options to pull. There are more "wrong way" and "stand out" hairs to choose from which makes it tough but I am getting closer and closer to FINALLY having my eyebrows and eyelashes back. This morning on my way back to the office from court, I stopped in the Mac store at Grand Central station and bought mascara for the first time ever. I've used mascara before but usually because I get it as part of the free Clinique gift or something- I've never actually gone out and bought mascara.

I must admit that it felt so good to be able to take that step and I admitted to the makeup woman that this was the first time I've ever really had eyelashes so I needed a little lesson on how to put on make up (its different when you are using it to compliment the hair you already have vs. using the makeup to substitute the hair you dont). Anyway, I cant believe that I actually came out and told her- a complete stranger. I didnt give her a reason but I also didnt start off with a bullshit excuse or lie.

Anyway, because I was feeling so good and confident with my "new hair" I decided to take it one step further and bought concealer, different brushes, a whole bunch of stuff. Normally I am in and out when it comes to make up because I'm so self conscious about my face and I've never really taken the time how to learn how to use make up but it was wonderful to have this new confidence- I just have to remind myself of that great feeling (instead of the bad feeling i always get after I pull) when the urges get really strong.

Reason #20 (skipping to 20 after your suggestions for #18 and #19)- never learning how to actually use make up for its intended purpose since that would have required having a stranger too close to my face.