5 days!!

It's been a crazy few days so i dont have time for my usual ranting but I did just want to comment on a few things today. First, I have been pull free since Sunday (5 full days)!! For now, I just want to make it to a week- that's my goal at the moment. Once I get to a week (once, not if) i will increase my goal but for now I'm proud of my 5 days, it's the longest I've gone in probably close to a year if not more (again, in the interest of full disclosure I will admit that I have "tweezed" here and there but only, seriously only, hairs that clearly would not be normal eyebrow hair even if they were fully grown in- i consider this something I have to let myself so I dont screw up everything which I would likely do if i saw dozens of little random hairs all over).

Sadly I have no real update on the hypnosis. Even after joining an online support group I really havent gotten much of a response on this avenue- one person vaguely responded that new things usually start out well but that she had to use other methods in combination or over time (i couldnt really tell what effect, if any, it really had or how long it helped for). More and more people seem to be connecting trich to caffeine/sugar intake so I'm slowly trying to improve my diet (which, if I'm being honest, consists in large part of sugar and caffeine- I'm convinced I'm thin because of the amount of coffee i drink). Next week I'm also going to add exercise to the plan since I've definitely slacked off in that area and reducing stress levels may help too. Who knows but I'm trying anything and everything.

Putting aside the treatment options for a minute, last night I went to a networking function with my friend Kate, the one I told 2 days ago about my trich. Once again I was thrown into a situation where people are standing RIGHT next to you and it's so hard to maintain eye contact without that fear coming up (reason #6 to stop) that they are going to notice my missing eyebrows and eyelashes. As terrible as that aspect was, for the first time I was not super self conscious around a friend who knows I have trich. normally, after I tell someone, I just want to move on and pretend trich really isnt that big of a deal and I become acutely aware everytime that friend looks me in the eyes. Not this time. I also have been having regular conversations with my sister, grandmother, mom, and friend Danielle- all of whom I brought it back up with this week. It's starting to feel like it's okay to talk about it, good even. When the bad and horrible urges come, thinking of them and having to tell them (and write on this blog) that I slipped can help- I'm not going to lie and say that makes it significantly easier since we all know that the urges are amazingly strong but it does help some.

Anyway, I guess this post was longer than I expected but it still feels good to write and talk about it, especially since I have been feeling my motivation drop a little bit (although I am just about to start my menstrual cycle so I'm hoping that my emotions are just worse than usual right now). As always, thanks for listening and I hope anyone reading this has a pull-free weekend :)

Reason #6 to stop- networking function requiring close talking

Reason # 7- the wrinkles that are appearing on my forehead (i'm 29!) because I always raise my eyebrows when stroking my eyelashes and feeling for what I will be trying to pick/not pick next- over the years I think I've spent so much time lifting my eyebrows to pluck my eyebrows that I'm getting premature awful wrinkles (which I just noticed a couple weeks ago too!).