Hypnosis- The Results?

I did it. I shelled out $440 on hypnosis, I did get a little sleepy and now I'm waiting to see if it worked. Here's how it went:

I showed up for my 1:00 appointment and we just talked a bit about trich and other changes I wanted to make such as loving exercise and not craving sweets so much. It's difficult to relay everythign she said but it was basically about how you need to reprogram the way you think, that every urge can only last for a total of 60 seconds (apparently proven by psychiatrists for years) and how you cant have two opposite urges- I cant want to pull and not want to pull.

Nancy (the hynotist) also believes that we are more influened by positive thoughts than negative and we can retrain our minds to make positive choices- that by envisioning ourselves a certain way eventually we retrain how our mind works and choose the better alternative. One example she used was driving abroad- we are so used to driving on one side of the road yet, according to her, when people go to Europe and have to drive on the other side, they just do it. There is very little time to train themselves because its something you HAVE to do and apparently there have been studies to show there are no greater amount of accidents as a result of people used to driving on one side then suddenly driving on the other. We are forced to make that choice so we do it.

Another example was potty training. As infants we are used to "relieving" ourselves in a diaper but we can be trained to go into a bathroom and use a toilet and never use a diaper again. Same thing with drinking from a bottle. I'm not sure I'm conveying all this properly but its really about positive training. If we retrain ourselves to think "i have all my hair and i want to keep all my hair" eventually that becomes the automatic choice and it is helped by planting the seed into our subconscious but we have to convince ourselves we want it and its possible.

So onto the hypnosis. It was done in her office while sitting in a chair- you pretty much start out by staring at the ceiling while she talks and then focusing on your breathing. Eventually you go into what she calls a "trance" state. Apparently it is normal to still have other thoughts during this time and I will admit I had the popular Cee Low (spelling?) song "Fuck You" in my head because I heard it in the cab on the way over. Then I was worried that would screw it up but I did get pretty drowsy and otherwise focused on what she was saying. i was also picturing myself with full, beautiful eyelashes for most of it. It felt like it was about 7-10 minutes and I guess it was actually 18 or so.

That was it really. During the process she would repeat the mantra "I have all my hair" and occasionally throw in "i want to keep my hair" and "i love to exercise because it makes me feel so good" and "i stay away from sugar because I like to feel good and be thin". Part of me felt like the "i have all my hair mantra" wasnt the best- I would rather have had more emphasis on "i want to keep all my hair" but I'll mention that next time.

So yes, there is a next time. She often recommends it and considering we are dealing with a 22 year "habit" I felt a reinforcement session was worth it- might as well try and make that money work- the second session is $350 i think. All in all it was kind of what I expected, kind of not. She said I was in a very deep trance which she could tell from my breathing but I dont know- maybe the person 'in the trance' doesnt know. I walked away a little bit unsure but hopeful and with a recording of the entire session that I listened to, as recommended, just before I went to bed last night.

Now the results. I'm so worried that it didnt work- I keep also wanting to test it out but then of course I dont want to. I will say that I was happy to go to the gym today and worked out quite a bit longer than usual but I could also attribute that to losing 1.5 pounds over the last 2 days and having an awful, stressful morning with jerky and obnoxious clients. I also went out to eat last night to a comfort food place and was repulsed by the greasy grilled cheese sandwich- was it because I now like to be healthy or was it actually gross? Normally i love greasy and cheesy. And I have had no desire for anything sweet in the lat 24 hours which is crazy but could that be from just working out all week and loving the weight i've been losing? (and you know how sometimes when you leave the gym you just want health food?) Yeah, I dont know. Maybe I'm looking for excuses or affirmation it worked, who knows- I'm on the fence.

As for trich- I have several times reached my hand up to "smooth" and feel my eyebrows and eyelashes but even when I get my hand close, I immediately put my hand back down. I've been thinking about it constantly but am I just extra motivated right now NOT to pull or did the hypnosis really work? I would LOVE to know but I guess only time will tell............

PS- If it does work then I'm happy to say for anyone interested- apparently she does a lot of work with people over the phone so just because you dont live in/around NYC doesnt meant you can have the benefit of her services. I'll keep you posted :)