Does anyone else have an indentation on their index finger which will likely always remain? I tried taking a few photos but it didnt come out too clearly (dont mind the wrinkled shirt I used for contrast- haha). From the years and years of picking, which I do primarily with my left hand (although I'm right handed) I have an indentation caused by my thumb nail. When I put the two fingers together to pull the culprit hair, I press into my index finger, and over time its gotten worse and worse.
Sometimes, when I'm feeling especially tweezer happy, I will try to remove the indentation. Trich has caused me to have a freakishly high tolerance to pain. i can literally stick a pin or the tweezers into my finger and just pull back the skin. I know, it's a little disturbing but I'm trying to be more honest than I've been. For a few days afterward it is obviously much more difficult (and painful) to pull with my dominant pulling hand but the tweezer has always been a good back up and, let's be honest, it's never really stopped me from pulling.
In an effort to curb some of my eyebrow and eyelash pulling I've tried to focus more on other areas where the missing hair wont be so noticeable to the casual onlooker (again, this is incredibly and painfully embarrassing to admit but I'm trying to be more honest). As a girl, we can blame certain missing hair on waxing or shaving and guys really don't seem to mind. Lets just say I have gone to town lately and the indentation on my finger is more pronounced then I can remember. Even the woman at the nail salon commented on it whereas usually they just look puzzled as to what would cause such a mark. Even if I finally manage to beat this stupid disease, I would imagine that this will be my permanent reminder of the years I spent pulling away my self esteem.
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