Friday, May 4, 2012
Live every week likes it's shark week
Well it's been a little more than two weeks. I was doing really well the first week and then this week just sucked. I'm basically starting over (yet again). This time I truly just feel lazy- there have been so many times that I know I could have prevented and I just left myself keep pulling and the destructive behavior and attitude won again. I have been overwhelmed by your comments and wish I could report to you that I'm doing great. But I can't. I have no good excuses, no traumatic events or crazy stressful events that i can point too. I even was aware that I was pulling but I just didn't try that hard to stop. I'm sorry, really I am and I hope that you are doing better.
So now it is May 4th and I'm once again eyebrowless. Fortunately most of my eyelashes have remained in tact although the left eye isn't as full as the right eye. My boyfriend and I are still talking about getting married within the next few months (we decided not to get engaged until we could get married right away since we both want to elope) but I know I'll still want pictures and just can't fathom the idea of having a photographer take close up photos when I have penciled in eyebrows. As Liz Lemon says on 30 rock when she is frustrated "blurgh" (i'm on a 30 rock kick this week- it also explains the title of this post). Doesn't it always feel like trich takes away the moments that are supposed to be so happy by stirring up anxiety and self consciousness? That is almost worse than actually not having hair. Double blurg.
I'm not giving up. Not ever. I may have to start over a million times but I wont give up. So for those of you that are following this blog and doing great- keep it up and please share your tips! And for those (like me) that are picking up and starting again, dont give up. Never give up. Let's start again right now and just try to make it through the weekend without pulling. Good luck and, as always, thank you thank you thank you for reading and supporting me and each other!
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What about eyebrow enhancement?
ReplyDeletehttp://www.nu-brow.com/
Wow, I've never heard of nu-brow before but its a great idea and definitely worth a shot. Thanks so much for the suggestion and for reading and commenting on my blog!
ReplyDeleteI started over again with you! My husband was mad at me because I was asking for the tweezers again because I was using my fingers to pull out my stray eyebrows I was trying to grow out- they got pretty far along this time. I don't like when he gets mad at me because I am already mad at myself. But anyway, I made a pinky promise with my husband that I won't pull until June 7th, which is when we are going to Disney World! I hate going on Splash Mountain and finding that the scariest part of the ride isn't the big drop but rather that the water might wash off my penciled in eyebrows or reveal my missing eyelashes! Crazy world I live in. So, I am not going to pull so I can enjoy all of the water rides with my children, not to mention swimming. We have waited a long time for this family vacation together! Anyway, I was just looking at the nu-brow site- that looks like a great option for a happy wedding day for you! Let us know how it works for you! Anyway, keep going with your challenge! I am struggling right along with you. We can do this! Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteHeidi
Just found your blog. I started pulling at age 9, I don't remember how I started to get it "under control". I remember the embarrassment of bald spots and no eyebrows. By high school I got myself to mostly pulled on my arms and facial hair. The benefit was I never had to shave for a beard. It was my way pulling less and it could be "acceptable" without much embarrassment. However, it creates a lot of red marks and ingrown hairs. I'm 34 and I've recently decided I want to completely stop. Your comments about frustration remind me of the battle just to limit the location to my facial hair. It scares me because I wake up from dreams pulling my hair. I find my hands pulling the hair that I want to keep. How I've had this "under control" isn't good enough for me anymore. I'm picking up your challenge. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteI envy you so much... Yo can't imagine.
ReplyDeleteI am 21 and I have TTM since I was about 10. I think I used to control it better than now, I don't know if it is because my studies level is higher now so exams stress me more now.
My challenges are usually "a day without pulling" or even "the whole morning without pulling" but I can NEVER make it, so I'm reading your challenge is for 6 WEEKS and I'm feeling so bad.
I'm wondering about telling my boyfriend (we've been together for nearly two years now) I have a OCD, but I'm not specifying (so I'm not telling him I have TTM).
I would like so much to have someone to talk... So if you ever want to talk with someone by night I'm Spanish so it would be daytime here!
My email is ttmmaria@yahoo.com
I just pull hair from my head, not eyebrows or eyelashes.
I also have hypothyroidism, is this a coincidence or may it be related to TTM.
Thank you so much for your blog!