Tonight at 12 I am beginning a new challenge. I am going to try and go 6 straight weeks with no pulling. Why 6 weeks? Because I have heard that that is how long it goes from having no eyebrows to having eyebrows. My reward? It's a big one. I'm going to splurge on a laser eye surgery touch up. I did it about 8 years ago and it was amazing but now my eyesight is fading again. Glasses are actually not horrible because they distract from my lack of hair but I want to see the world clearly again.
My cousins wedding was great, she look beautiful, we had a wonderful time in California but I need to have a plan. Summer is coming, my boyfriend and I may be eloping in the not so distant future and frankly I want the eye surgery.
You've heard me say it now and so I am sticking to it. I have to start at midnight because technically I pulled at 3am this morning and my OCD always likes me to start a day fresh. I will not let myself get that surgery until this goal is accomplished. I did so well in CA, I wasnt pulling at all but then just thinking about my clients and work and stress and life I came home late last night and did some damage. Unreal.
So here I go. It's time. It's past time. I would love for someone, everyone, anyone to join with me on this- post comments, send me emails, let's keep each other motivated. It's just 6 weeks, right? We can do this. And once we have, we will find a new goal. May 29th is our date- let's do it!!!
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I am so grateful for your blog. I feel relieved to read your inner most thoughts about your struggle with trich. My name is also Kimberly and I recently moved to Brooklyn from upstate NY. I have been struggling with trich for 7 years. I frequently pull my eyelashes and eyebrows and sometimes (just recently) hairs on my head. Once a year (always in the winter) I pull to the point of having no eyelashes. I almost feel relieved when they are gone because I no longer have anything to obsess about. The thing that has really worked for my recovery (which is sometimes short-lived) is putting my tweezers in the kitchen. The fact that I have to walk to the kitchen to get them gives me time to talk myself out of pulling. I sometimes pull with my fingers but I can't always get that "one" hair that is "out of place" or "unlike the others." Pulling is like a drug. My brain has rewired itself to feel intense pleasure. I remember when I first started plucking my eyebrows and I cried it hurt so bad. I try to think of my stubby eyebrow hairs coming back in as "new growth" and related to my recovery.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story and being so honest. I have told my friends and family and they are all very supportive but I still can't help but feel alone sometimes.
I don't want to post anonymously but I can't find the courage to say what I've known for years and years but never actually verbalized.
ReplyDeleteI've been pulling out my hair since maybe third grade. It started on my scalp, but in high school I move on to my eyebrows, eyelashes, tops of my fingers, and a number of other places I'm too embarrassed to even mention. I'm now 22... you do the math.
I admire your challenge, and I'd like to jump in with you. My eyebrows are dwindling away to nothing and the eyelashes on my left eye are half way gone. I miss them. I want them back.
Do you have any tips or advice for what you've done when you feel the urge to pull coming on?
Hey sister, I am so in on this challenge with you! By the way, my name is Heidi. I am so happy you are doing this. So I wish I would have read this earlier- just a few hours ago I was 5 days pull free. Now I am back to zero and missing lots of eyebrows and lashes. I had my husband hide my brand new tweezers from me- I threw my old ones away a few days ago because I was mad at them even though I am the problem, not them. The only reason I bought the tweezers again was because my husband got a splinter and needed tweezers to remove it. Anyway, now my fingers hurt as I type this. But that is all in the past now and I am starting my challenge 2 days behind you-having me finish on May 31st. I hope your first 2 days have been successful. We can do this together! Just one day at a time, sister! There is strength in numbers!
ReplyDeleteKimberly, how is the challenge going for you? I am good so far- one week down, five to go! I painted my finger nails bright pink to remind me of our challenge. I will keep them pink until June 1st- usually I like them clear or french manicure so they really stick out to me. Anyway, just thinking of you and everyone doing this challenge. I hope and pray we can all make it to the end! We can do this together!
ReplyDeleteYour sister,
Heidi
WARNING...beware that one hair that is "out of place." Resist the temptation! It only leads to the the next one that is "out of place" and so on and so forth! I think you know what I am talking about. I had a little set back yesterday, but I am back on track with the challenge- I will not let it get me down! Let's keep going! Hang in there!
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