As you'll see, my eyelashes (which i'll admit have mascara and a little bit of eyeliner on them as this photo and post are a bit impromputu) look pretty good. The bottom ones havent been pulled in months. The tops ones are basically just as I described the other day- if you look at the left one close to my nose you might notice that there is a bit of a gap from where I pulled a few weeks ago. The time waiting while they are growing back in - when the hairs are small and crooked -is really the hardest time for me not to pull. And my shitty thin looking eyebrows are just sad and crying out for my to let them be.
It's still progress from this time last year, big progress actually as I properly had a few stray hairs (it always reminds me of the song from elementary school "the cheese stands alone, the cheese stands alone" for some bizarre reason- ha). Anyway, thats that and I feel I owe it to my ego to remind myself that I left off a BIG accomplishment from 2010- I quit smoking. Yes, that's me patting myself on the back but screw it, it was hard (a that's what she said reference is definitely called for here for anyone who is a fan of 'the office' like I am).
So there it is. My first step and the hard truth that I start off this year with. Does anyone have suggestions? Things that are working? Topic ideas? (sometimes that is the hardest part of having a blog- coming up with new ideas but lately I've been stuck on my boyfriends hairs and despite already posting about it, I might do another- i cant tell you how much I want to pull his stray eyebrow hairs sometimes!)
You are stronger than I to post a photo. I currently have no lashes or brows :(
ReplyDeleteThank you but I promise it took me a very long time to get to the point where I could post a photo. Even if you have no lashes or brows right now, you have to start somewhere. 24 hours. Just start at 24 hours and then give yourself credit for your resilience, for never giving up on your ability to one day beat this thing. I found that forgiving myself and giving myself some credit for always picking up and trying again makes fighting this so much more manageable. I've been at the "i have no hair" spot more times then I can count. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI've read through your blog (I went all the way back to your first post!) I'll admit I havent read all of them, I'm working on it. But you have inspired me. I'm hoping maybe writing about my problem helps as it did for you. I've had trich for at least 14 years now. I don't remember exactly the point in time when I started but it's been difficult.I admire you for being so brave. I hope this goes as well for me as it did you!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Aly- getting feedback really helps keep me going (especially after weeks like this last one) and I'm so glad I was able to help you even a small bit. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I know how feedback could help, it helps to know people are understanding you and keeping up with you!
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