The ends

Yesterday I slipped- I pulled two eyelashes from my right eye (the eye where they already look thinner despite having not pulled either side for almost two months) and two hairs from my right eyebrow. I like the hairs at the end, they have a different feel to them when i pull them- it's hard to explain but its almost more of a "snap" to it.

I slipped while at work. I was incredibly tired and frustrated with my boss, not a huge surprise, and found myself pulling. I can, and have, taken a lot of crap from him over the 3 years I've been here (and the dozens of people I've seen come and go, i've been here the longest) but now he has started being incredibly patronizing- he likes to continually ask us to do things "for the good of the team" and will say that benefits will follow, although they never do. However, he is the only one that NEVER, NEVER steps up "for the good of the team". He'll say we are all coworkers and teammates, and he knows that he needs our help with so much legal work he cant do himself since he lacks the actual experience, but when push comes to shove he repeatedly drops the ball and cant be bothered, even with his own clients. Again, I can take a lot of shit, but we all have our limits.

It's time to make some changes with work and step up my efforts to get out of my job- I keep hoping things here will change but deep down I know that it's not going to happen and I dont want to be self destructive in the process.

My guard is back up, lesson learned. Luckily as soon as I realized what I was doing, despite how good I will admit it felt, I got up and walked around the office, talked to a coworkers about something unrelated and let myself simmer down a bit. My boss sucks enough life out of me as it is but I wont let my frustration and anger with him impede my progress in the battle against trich. Karma is a bitch- what goes around comes around.